Three years blogging today!


I didn’t know – and wordpress told me. It’s hard to think back now to how my views have changed in the last three years. Has blogging helped? I think it has. Blogging has introduced me to more concepts than I would have found in a newspaper. More open and well-argued opinions and theories. More tragedy than anyone should have to endure. And more evil than we could believe our trusted health guardians capable of.

Yes, my views have changed. I have become perhaps more cynical of the lies in the media. I have become more doubting of the claims of the so-called “alternative” media too.

But one thing has shone through all of that worldly stuff – I cling ever closer to God! Why do I cling? Am I afraid of the world? No – I’m afraid of deception, because that puts a barrier between us and Him. So I seek Him and His word – and I close my mind around his word!

Deception is rife. It’s everywhere. It’s in the preposterous, but also the entirely believable. The believable is more dangerous, and the desirable even more so. How many of us could resist a comforting lie if it’s what our heart wants?! But surrendering our hearts to God and saying YOUR WILL, NOT MINE helps. The only way to know His will is to read His word!

The paring away of lies, of falsehood is only one aspect of our walk with God though. That is, in some respects, an intellectual path, and for me, that was the walk I had to take. I had to stop leaning on my own understanding! I had to get into the word of God to STOP my intellectual reasoning from getting in the way of my walk. My battle was partly with me!

But in many other respects this blog could come to an end and I could move away and shift my focus into something far simpler. Something not even slightly cerebral. Perhaps that will be my next adventure – to live in the wilds with my man and get truly back to basics. In the following post I’m going to share a show with Zach Bauer, and you need to listen to this, because the depth of his learning about God and His word was greatly increased when he began smallholding. I hope that is next for me – but far away from here! God willing!

This blog continues to draw visitors from around the world. I will finish by saying a big thank you to all my followers – thank you for sticking with me – some from the very early days. The shifts in my views have chased a few away, and drawn ire from others, but that was a necessary part of the journey I think!

As a final P.S. those of you in Torah may be like me and without a group or church to meet with. That isn’t an easy thing to deal with, and it can be very isolating. I’m going to add today all my favourite Torah teachers to the Resources page, so that you can find some spiritual food for your Sabbath rest and study. I hope these teachers are a blessing to you, but as with everything, use discernment, and close your mind around the word of God! If any of you are without fellowship and are in need to prayer, please use the email address on the About Lis page and contact me. I am happy to pray for your needs!

God Bless you



Charlie Gard and family granted US citizenship

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Thank you, America, for giving this child and his family a chance to get out of the clutches of Great Ormond Street Hospital and the courts that wish to prevent his further treatment. I hope now that GOSH will be forced to release him so that he can get over to America for treatment.

It is vital that we do not forget that prayer is the very best hope this little boy has – and we must also remember that the medical fraternity are not godly.

However, these parents should never have had their rights as parents infringed upon by the state and the courts. It should be a case of their child, and their choice – otherwise, whatever next? You’re seeing it already in California with mandatory vaccination.

The government do not know what’s best for this child, or any other (that’s a laughable notion, in fact), and whilst only God knows truly what is best, these parents must now, surely, be set free to take their child to doctors who have hopes for his LIFE and not his death!

You can read the rest of the Daily Mail article here: Link

Please pray for Charlie, his family and the whole situation.

God Bless you


Witches target Trump with mass occult ritual

Prayers are needed for President Trump – please keep him in your daily prayers! My emphasis added below:

“It’s not just a political battle anymore. It’s spiritual warfare now.

Exorcists, witches and occultists “in a number of magical groups” are announcing plans for a ritual designed to “bind Donald Trump and all who abet him.”

It’s to happen Friday at midnight at a variety of locations across the nation, and again every month until Donald Trump is no longer in office.”

via Witches target Trump with mass occult ritual

God Bless you


An update on sweet Harvey

I am so sad to say that my poor little dog Harvey passed away this afternoon. He’d got pneumonia, and had had a bad weekend. His antibiotics weren’t working, and this can be the case for dogs with chest infections. I’m devastated that this darling boy who I was so hopefuly would turn a corner simply couldn’t, and slipped away very suddenly.

I am grateful to God for the years I had with him.

Please pray for me as I deal with this appalling loss, and this gulf of silence I now find myself in (cats are so quiet!).

God Bless you


Prayers needed please….

My dear little old dog, Harvey, is very poorly right now – and he’s back off to the vet again for the second time this week with breathing difficulties and not wanting to eat. Please pray he gets through this – his medication has messed up his electrolytes badly, and I think this is the problem. Please pray for an affordable solution for him, so that I can keep him with me for at least a while longer.

Oh, and please pray my exhaust on my car holds up on my journey there and back tonight (it’s broken, and I can’t get it fixed until tomorrow).

Thank you all.

God Bless you


UPDATED to add: The vet called and wants to do a blood test, so said to come tomorrow when his meds have worn off. At least this means the car exhaust will be done first. Please pray he has a comfortable night – he seems really uncomfortable at the moment, so it’s hard for him to rest. Thank you all. x

A rant before breakfast – on Hell and South Africa

I’m going to try to write this without crying, because it’ll make it harder for me to type. But there is something happening in South Africa which God has placed on my heart with such a heaviness that last night when I went to pray for them, my heart broke and I simply couldn’t help but cry.

The stories I have heard fo the farm attacks in particular – the suffering and torture the white Boer and Afrikaner people have suffered at the hands of the black majority would make you blench, and as I thought about them last night, crying out to God to hear my prayers for them, I was struck by the vileness of the lie of Hell.

If you believe in Hell, then I’m sorry for you. I’m sorry that for you a Boer husband who is tied up and forced to watch as his wife is raped with a broken bottle… forced to watch as his wife and children are killed savagely. Sometimes they let those husbands live – now that is torment, don’t you think? I’m sorry that for you, believer in Hell, there is a worse place you can imagine for this husband if he doesn’t know Jesus?

I’m sorry but I want to spit in your eye for such words, because if you look in the bible you cannot find the Hell you so badly want to condemn others to. I know that temptation (mostly for the Rothschilds and Rockefellers, when I have those moments), but it’s not there.

God said to Adam and Eve that when they ate of the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil that they would ‘surely die’ – not that they would surely die and be tormented in the flames of Hell for all eternity.

In the Law of Moses, God said that we were to do His law, and follow His statutes and that if we did He would bless us, and that if we didn’t He would curse us. He told us exactly what those curses would be (and we are under them now). He did not say that we would be tormented after death.

In fact Job longed for his bed in Sheol – for him that was a place of rest.

Job 14:13
O that in Sheol Thou wouldst conceal me, Hide me till the turning of Thine anger, Set for me a limit, and remember me.

In 1 John 3:4 we are told: “Whosoever committeth sin transgresseth also the law: for sin is the transgression of the law.”

Sin is transgression of the law, and death is the final penalty for sin according to the Torah.

Let me just be clear here – if the consequences of sin are death, and if Jesus died a substitutionary death for your sins and mine, then the consequences of sin can only be death – not torment in hell for all eternity.

But we have perverted the bible for our own ends. How many of you, dear believers, were scared out of Hell in order to get saved? Does that make you love God? I don’t think so!

In fact the bible is clear in God’s law – that suffering is a consequence of not following His law – and I’m not in any fragment of a moment saying that one single South African deserves what is taking place there – I don’t know their sins, and I am not their judge. That kind of torment is, in my mind NEVER justified, and I do not believe it is appointed by God either. It is pure evil – unalloyed by civility, or by education. These people conducting these farm attacks are savages filled with hate. These aren’t robberies, they are hate crimes.

One last thing in this rant, and then, I promise I’ll go and eat something (and maybe feel better) is the issue of Gehenna.

Jesus talked about Gehenna.

I know Gehenna – I’ve been through the gates of it – it’s sin and depravity – a current life place, not an afterlife place. I know one or two people who are in Gehenna right now – sinning to the point where the sin is their reason for being. If you don’t think that torment is enough, and you still want Hell then ask yourself this:

If there is an afterlife Hell then everyone gets eternal life. If you believe there are souls in Hell right now then you believe in two judgement days. The lake of fire is the second death, we are told – the second death, yet it’s an eternal life? Of torture? The bible has already told us that the dead know nothing: Ecc 9:5 “For the living know that they shall die: but the dead know not any thing, neither have they any more a reward; for the memory of them is forgotten.”

We can twist the word of God, and make it say what we want – we can mistranslate it, and we can simply take it out of context, yet what we cannot do is insert Hell into the Torah. We cannot do that because it’s not there. Feel free to correct me – show me chapter and verse…

Please will you take a moment to pray with me for South Africa:

Heavenly Father remember your people the Boers and the Afrikaners – LORD we cry out to you to protect them, and to raise up amongst them strong leaders with godly righteousness to set right the evil which is currently rife there. This violent place where suffering and poverty also abound – LORD we stand with them in prayer – we lift them up to you, and pray you will preserve them from further anguish. Send your Angels, Father, to protect them and to fight the battles in the unseen which take place there daily. Educate your people, LORD, bring to them all the knowledge they need to fight for their lives. This we pray in the name of your beloved Son Yeshua. Amen.

I don’t have words for the anguish I feel when I think of them now – last night it was all I could do to pray in tongues, because I couldn’t find words to pray.

Please keep them daily in your prayers.

God Bless you


Prayer request for me

Would you please pray for me? Tomorrow I am going to the dentist for an extraction, and I would just ask that you would guide the dentist to make the right decision about my tooth and other teeth, and that God would guide me and the dentist, and protect me through the process. I’d rather not be having this done, but it looks as though there is no alternative – I’ve tried everything I can think of, including of course, lots and lots of prayer!

Thank you everyone!

God Bless you